Our failure and disgrace are often a prelude to glory. Before
the nourishing rains come, there must be clouds. Peter had clouds of disgrace
in his life. He had even been called “Satan” by his Lord. After “assuring”
Jesus that He wouldn’t have to be killed:
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He [Jesus] turned and said to Peter, “Get behind
me, Satan! You are a hindrance to me. For you are not setting your mind on the
things of God, but on the things of man.” (Matthew 16:23)
Perhaps worst of all, after Jesus prophesied that His disciples
would all abandon Him at the crucifixion, Peter disagreed and disgraced himself
beyond all of the other Apostles:
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Then Jesus said to them, “You will all fall away
because of me this night. For it is written, ‘I will strike the shepherd, and
the sheep of the flock will be scattered’”… Peter answered him, “Though they
all fall away because of you, I will never fall away.” Jesus said to him, “Truly,
I tell you, this very night, before the rooster crows, you will deny me three
times.” Peter said to him, “Even if I must die with you, I will not deny you!” (Matthew
26:31-35)
It was bad enough that Peter had contradicted the Jesus’
prophecy, but he also boasted that he was more faithful than the other
Apostles: “Though they all fall away because of you, I will never fall away!”
What conceit! Such arrogance
is an impediment to the purpose of our Lord to build His Church. While humility
is a glue that connects, arrogance pushes people away. It boasts that “I am
better than you.” While humility enables us to focus on Jesus, arrogance places
the focus back upon the self.
Peter had not been trusting in the Lord and in His words.
Overriding Jesus’ words, Peter then exalted Himself for a second time “Even if
I must die with you, I will not deny you!”
When we are assured that we can stand and prevail on our
own, we are setting ourselves up for a massive fall (1 Cor. 10:12-13). We are
trusting in ourselves and not in our Savior.
Peter fell massively, denying His Lord three times, just as
Jesus had prophesied:
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And Peter remembered the saying of Jesus,
“Before the rooster crows, you will deny me three times.” And he went out and
wept bitterly. (Matthew 26:75)
However, Peter needed this bitter lesson. Although His
failures had plunged him into self-despair, it was a necessary lesson to
prepare him for service. Paul had to learn the same lesson:
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For we do not want you to be unaware, brothers,
of the affliction we experienced in Asia. For we were so utterly burdened
beyond our strength that we despaired of life itself. Indeed, we felt that we
had received the sentence of death. But that was to make us rely not on
ourselves but on God who raises the dead. (2 Corinthians 1:8-9)
We all must unlearn self-trust. Without this, we will never
be able to trust in the Lord. Without learning to despair in ourselves and our
own adequacy, we will never learn about the all-sufficiency of our Lord:
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Such is the confidence that we have through
Christ toward God. Not that we are sufficient in ourselves to claim anything as
coming from us, but our sufficiency is from God, who has made us sufficient to
be ministers of a new covenant, not of the letter but of the Spirit. (2
Corinthians 3:4-6)
We are inadequate, self-centered, blind, and esteem the
things of man over the things of God. In our arrogance, we like to think that “I
got what it takes.” Such confidence must be burned away to leave room for
God-confidence, as any metal that must go through the fires of refinement to
remove the impurities. Peter had to die to himself before he was able to hear what
Jesus had to say.
After Jesus had appeared to His Apostles by the sea of
Gallilee, He reminded Peter of his boast that even if the others would abandon
Jesus, he, Peter, would never abandon Him:
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When they had finished breakfast, Jesus said to
Simon Peter, “Simon, son of John, do you love me more than these [do]?” He said
to him, “Yes, Lord; you know that I love you.” He said to him, “Feed my lambs.”
(John 21:15)
This time, Peter didn’t take the bait. He didn’t say, “Yes,
I love you more than these do.” However, Jesus pressed on further, reminding
Peter of his three instances of betrayal. Three
times, He asked Peter “Do you love me?” Reminded of his terrible betrayal,
Peter grieved instead of boasting. However, his failure and disgrace had now
readied him to receive the Savior’s threefold calling to “Feed my sheep” (John
21:15-18). He had learned something that we all have to continue to learn –
that it’s all about our Savior. If He is for us, no one, not even our
inadequacies, can be against us (Romans 8:81-32).
It is only in brokenness that growth can take place. For a
tree to grow, the new growth must crack its way through the bark, scarring the
tree, leaving deep twisted lacerations in the bark. But there is no other way
for a tree to grow. There must be tearing and there must be scars.
When we look at the bark up-close, it is rough and
contorted, but when we see it from afar, it has a beauty all its own. We too
need to see ourselves from afar, through the eyes of our Lord:
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Then came one of the seven angels who had the
seven bowls full of the seven last plagues and spoke to me, saying, “Come, I
will show you the Bride, the wife of the Lamb”… having the glory of God, its
radiance like a most rare jewel, like a jasper, clear as crystal. (Revelation
21:9-11)
For now, we cannot see ourselves as “the wife of the Lamb.”
We cannot handle such a vision:
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See what kind of love the Father has given to
us, that we should be called children of God; and so we are. The reason why the
world does not know us is that it did not know him. Beloved, we are God’s
children now, and what we will be has not yet appeared; but we know that when
he appears we shall be like him, because we shall see him as he is. And
everyone who thus hopes in him purifies himself as he is pure. (1 John 3:1-3)
We cannot see ourselves as we are in God’s sight. This is why
we must walk in hope according to what He has written to us:
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For in this hope we were saved. Now hope that is
seen is not hope. For who hopes for what he sees? But if we hope for what we do
not see, we wait for it with patience. (Romans 8:24-25)
We need to “see” the unseen. Only by virtue of this kind of embrace
of the unseen can we endure. However, we must also “see” His battered Bride in
the same way. Our Lord loves His Church. We must do the same.
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